This isn’t finance related but something someone said to me today triggered me to write about grudges. You see, I am not proud to admit this but I can hold a grudge. In person, I am very outgoing and love hanging out with my friends and . Once you are my friend I I treat you like you’re family. If you needed help, I would drop everything I’m doing to help you. I’m super affectionate towards my family and friends, and I am usually happy all the time. However on the flip side I don’t hide my emotions well. If I am happy, you know it. If I’m sad you can see it on my face. If I’m angry you can tell in my eyes.
With that said, once you do something to hurt me, I am ruthless. I will cut you out of my life. I’m not rude or anything like that however the warmth that I exude towards my friends and family disappears. I guess you can say that I become very polite and standoffish. Only 2 people in my whole life has ever made me angry and though what they did to me happened a year or two ago and they have apologized, I still cannot fully forgive. Or treat them as I once use to. I see a counselor once a week and this comes up often for me. I want to forgive people but it’s like once you screw me over, I can’t forget it.
Anyone else feel this way? Or did you figure out a way to forgive, let go and move on?